The rain of your eyes

I’ve been sitting around this life for years
To tell you what’s in your heart
Trying to figure out a way to vent, a way to share those tears
But how am I to start?

You’re searching for something to go beyond
When all about you is black with gloom
Pushing and pulling…life’s tearing you apart
And all you feel is pending doom.

When all your bones are racked with despair
Picking and prodding an underused heart
When every breath is a gasp for air
You scream and beg for a fresh new start.

This dark velvet curtain that hides your soul
Black as the pit from pole to pole
You’ve loved, lost and feared the world
"Enough is enough" you cry uncurled.

For you are weak inside, full of pain
You are lost to reality, almost insane
Not enough laughs, and too many tears
Oh, what a waste of all these important years.

"I am only human!" You cry with despair
"Does no one understand me?" You shout unaware
You’ve lost it all, oh there’s just no use!
If you fall, it doesn’t matter – it’s only another bruise.

You look into the air, you have become fallen rain
You are dripping your past memories…old pain.
Confusion feeds like a savage inside you
You’re destined to walk this empty life….all the way through.

Alone, exiled, different and disdained!
There’s nothing left inside you that’s worthy to remain
Emptiness builds like a home within you
You’re in an eternal echo, a life in a tomb.

This is madness, you think in plaintive cry!
You’re here, on the cusp, of lay down and die.
You used to wish for a window, to see birds, trees and the sky
But you think you’re better without one….it stops you from aiming too high.

Simple void, is that what you’ve become?
Hide the pain, do carry on.
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside… you are warped and twisted.

So here I am, walking down your memory lane.
Throttling…trying to understand…your feelings of pain.
Your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow
In all things…. it is better to hope than to simply let go.

But HOW do you live with a time bomb inside?
HOW do you defuse without destroying its ride?
HOW do you quell the anger reaching beyond the brink?
And HOW do you stop the endless tears that flow in crimson ink?

Questions! Questions! Too many if’s and too many whys!
Sit back and contemplate….and let ‘hope’ advise.

Life is unexpected with its twists and turn
It’s easy to cry that you’re beaten…..and leave no room to learn.
But to fight and to fight and to fight when all hope is out of sight
To keep your trust in Allah and feel his immense might!

This is your life and you can make a new start,
Let light slice through the darkness and follow your heart
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

Your head may be bloody…but you’re unbowed
DONT wince… DONT cry….slice through that dark depressing cloud.
You are the master of your fate… you are the captain of your soul
So leave your trust in Allah, let that be your ultimate goal.

You learnt of a man who struggled from the start.
A man who’s mission was "La ilaha illAllah" from the depths of his heart.
His tears fell like drops off rain from his eyes
Yet, in the face of hardship, stood firm and wise.

So endure for this moment, the tests of this life
Hold to the unbreakable rope of Allah…so very tight!
Let the menace of the years find you…unafraid.
And don’t let that hope within you gradually fade.

RISE from the streets of lonely no more!
SLICE through the darkness, hopes washed ashore!
GLIDE like an angel…your futures open and wide!
And BELIEVE in Allah…the one who will guide!

You will crawl till you walk again
And you will walk…..till you fly through the pain.
No more are you a prisoner….free from the chain
Old friend… you are no longer the one who stands in the rain!

Khadijah Kubra

Dream

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover

- Mark Twain